Humbly offer myself.
To the point of saying I love you, even if I don’t feel it back.
I know one day I will.
God, please break through.
But if you don’t, my life is yours. Nothing, not even you can change it.
You’re hitched, if that makes any sense. Stuck with me. Like that annoying kid who loved Dad and would not leave him alone. Three days of non-stop following Dad around until it was painfully obvious that Dad was thoroughly fed up.
I’ll be your shadow.
I’ll be your annoying little devotee.
I’ll be your love. I’ll be your child.
I’ll be reduced to that.
And what’s more, I’ll love it.
God, I don’t know if this has happened to you before-but you are royally threatened!
But you know what?
I can you your smile.
I can feel it inside me. Like a loving Dad. You gave me my sense of humor. It’s yours too. And I know you love it. I know you love me. Everything about me. You planned it all. The great the small.
I’m so yours.
Help me, on this earth.
God, sometimes I get so frustrated. SO ready to give up, or worse give in.
But you know what? If you can’t beat HIM—join HIM!!
You’re the way. You are the only truth.
So I’m with you.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
How do I tell you how much I care?
How can I explain what`s going on inside?
How do I put love into words and convince you of it?
Can I even?
And what`s more, how do I convince you that if I can love you this much,
How much more the love for you than love itself?
Won`t you open your eyes and see?
Open your ears and hear?
Open your heart and feel?
It`s there. He`s there.
It has come to a point where I can`t say I know how you feel.
I may have an idea, but it breaks my heart to imagine it, so I can`t.
When I do, my eyes fill with tears and I ask God, why? Why are you doing this to them?
How can you be letting this happen?
And as my heart is breaking and the pain is swelling. I realize...
It`s because I love you.
And how much more the love for you than that of Love Himself?
How much more is His heart breaking? Are His eyes crying?
I can`t imagine. But in my love I`m allowed to feel a bit of it, of Him.
Won`t you open your eyes and see? Open your heart and feel?
Open your soul and know.